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Just for you Billy

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I think that life has a tendency of flying by you in a moments notice, that is if you can even notice the moment when you are in it.  I thank God for the friends, family and individuals that he has brought into my life to make those moments everything he intended them to be.  I know that I went all emotional on the time spent last post and I still do apologize for not being able to make it to events, meetings, or hangouts.  It seems like the week is filled with, instances that involve let downs, toe stepping cancellations, or rescheduling’s. 

I was sitting in church today and I have experienced many instances of thought were I question and or ponder the value of life, never in a bad way but just logically or personally.  Today I had one of those moments and it seemed to hit harder than before.  It touched the depths of my soul, I would say, and it felt heavy and extremely deep.  I thought about a lot of memories that related and that made it more real.  But, I think the deepest feeling that I felt was the pain and heaviness for the lost, and that even at times includes myself and those around me on a day to day basis.  We place so much value on things.  That is a sentence itself because of the weight that it carries.  WE PLACE SO MUCH VALUE ON THINGS.  I am not calling anyone out on anything that I myself am not guilty of.  I am just say it is an easy thing to fall into and we must strive to keep accountability and take responsibility for out actions.  We all think about life or existence after death, and it is obvious from a Christian stand point.  Today I saw it from the non Christian one.  It was not because of anything that was said or that is going on in my life.  It was just a much deeper train of thought than anytime before.  It was weird but very powerful.  We know where the soul departs to if we have taken responsibility, but there are countless souls who don't.  They should have the chance to take that responsibility with the full knowledge of why they should.  How can we accommodate such a great concern?  That is our commission and purpose.  That is why we are here.  We must continue to compromise the integrity or lack there of, of the world to win the souls were are here to win.  Encourage each other and continue to support those who you know, respect and love.  Don't ever feel inadequate, you know where your strength comes from. 

I am not going to preach ... and or anymore for that matter.  I just want to say that I respect, and love you all and will continue through the busy, hard or tough times to continue to know you.

So about that time

There is none of it left.  I really enjoy seeing the friends that I can see in the midst of a busy week.  Every now and then I have to apologize for the times that I cannot do anything.  Sometimes its nice to just sit back and relax and maybe even be by yourself.  Its there anything wrong with that.  I mean breathing is really coool and there is a lot more breathing room alone.  That sounds really selfish, but seriously, I don't even know why I keep up something like this thing.  In most cases I just feel like for those of you I never see that I am just making a promise by being on to talk to you and then I call and cancel or just stand you up.  I'm sorry about that no harm intended. 

I wish I could say more but I am beat and need some rest before church tonmorrow. 

Laters

Some of these new features blow my mind, and I haven't dabbled enough to really know what to do with them all.  But again I will renew my vow to stay alive digitally as we are getting internet and I will at least try.  There are some things that have been keeping me busy.  Miss ya'll much, and much prayers.

p.s. it looks like all I need to do is update three or four times a year.

Well not only was I surprised at the upgrades to this place, but I was surprised at how long it has been since I have done anything for my xanga.  I should probably try and get to this on a regular basis so as to at least try and stay in touch with those of you who I never see except through such sites.

Thats right as my friend billy V. so clearly stated on a comment to my last post I did leave the country for two weeks for Puerto Rico on a missions trip.  It was a lot of fun as we went down to play baseball and teach it in clinics.  We also got to meet some amazing people down there.  I know the Lord is working in other countries because of what I have seen and heard from my travels and that of others.  I will will will will try hard hard hard to keep you all updated here on xanga more often.